Ok, what to write for my first blog on myblog.de??? Well, maybe I just start to write something about my last weekend. I can just say, it was AWESOME!!!! On Friday after work I went to my boyfriend's place to have dinner (take away pizza) and German beer. It was quite relaxing indeed after working every day in the morning. Anyhow, after dinner we decided to go clubbing. My boyfriend planned to go to Hard Kandy with few of his mates. Hard Kandy is a Hardtrance event and they had a 8th anniversary party. He so wanted to go, and I always wanted to experience a Hardtrance party in Australia. Even though I was freaking tired and lazy, I just went with him. He got changed into his "Phat pants" (seriously, I think they look ugly) and we headed to my place. Luckly I just live near by the club where the event is held. I wore trash clothes coz nobody cares here anyway. We met up with his friends and we went into the club around 11 PM. It was freaking packed already and almost everyone was wearing either a PHD (Pure Hard Dance) t-shirt or/and Phat pants. =_=; Except me of course. Anway, it was cool! All local Melbourne DJ's were playing and the music was good. Sometimes it was really hardcore trance but most of the time the music was ok for me. The club is huge and heaps of people came. The people there were super nice and friendly. I met people I didn't know before and just started talking to them in the restroom or at the dance floor. I even made contact to the event organisers. =) My boyfriend is well known in the community and he introduced me to all the people he met during his hardcore clubbing times. Geez, we stayed until 7 AM in the morning. I was freaking exhausted and I don't do drugs either. Some people pop pills like MDMA (Ecstasy) or Speed. My boyfriend unfortunately took half pill and I was freaking angry. Before I met him he popped pills in a regular basis and when we got together he promised me to stop this shit. We had a deal! That's why I was really pissed when he told me he is taking half pill on that night. Sometimes now I think, I really don't know if I should go on with him like this. He is 7 years older than me, he is nearly 30 but I can't see a bit of responsibility on him. It makes me very sad and disappointed. Moreover, after he took me home he went straight clubbing again. PHD is also a club which opens during the day time for hardcore trance raver. I actually told him not to go because he should be tired but he didn't want to listen. He said he will stay for a few hours and then go back to my place to sleep. Well, a few hours became 6 hours. He came back in the afternoon! We slept again until 9 PM. God! The whole Saturday was wasted! And on Sunday I had to work too. I felt so miserable because I drank a lot. It felt like a truck hit me. So now is Monday and I'm having a day off. My boyfriend disappeared since yesterday. He hasn't called me for a freaking whole day and I don't know where he is or how he is going. I don't want to waste my day off too, so I'm meeting now my best buddy. *sigh* I need to talk to a friend right now. I'm so confused with my own feelings and worries. I just have to go shopping today. So a beautiful and sunny day outside here in Melbourne and my boyfriend doesn't care about me.
What to do???
Peace and DON'T DO DRUGS!!!
Just came back home. Long day for me again. Well, after writing my last blog, I met up with my buddy and we went for coffee infront of my place. We were chatting mainly about my boyfriend and his strange behaviour lately. I serious expected the worst might happen to my Hon. I thought he lost his mobile or something happend to him or he got cold feet and this was his way to break up a relationship. I really had no clue at all and made myself crazy about it. But don't blame me, he didn't contact me for more than 24 hours and this was the first time ever he did that. Anyhow, I tried the best to enjoy my day off and forget about private matters. My buddy and I went for a short shopping spree until suddenly my boyfriend called. I was so released to see his name on my mobile screen and his explaination why he couldn't call me. The fact was that he indeed went to his friend's place the day before and they were helping another friend to move houses. During the day he forgot his mobile phone at his friend's place and totally forgot about it until he reached his own house. He couldn't be bothered to pick it up either. So today his friend brought his mobile phone over and my boyfriend saw that I called him at least 10 times and sent him 3 SMS's. He apologized and felt so bad about it. Well, I hope that too! Because I was freaking worried and couldn't sleep at all. Ah dear, at least it went all good at the end. I bought my boyfriend a Fossil watch today. On Thursday is his birthday, but I gave it to him today. Couldn't help it. *haha* Anyway, he loves it! Exactly his style (brown wide leather band). But don't think I spoil him because he didn't call me. In fact, we talked again and I told him that I was carring for him. He didn't realize it. He thought I wouldn't mind if he doesn't call for one day without notice. WTF! Of course I care! *sigh* Well, I hope he got my message and he promised not to do it again. Tomorrow he is staying over at my place after Uni. See how it goes then. Boyfriend.... Relationships... *headache* And men say, women are hard to understand. =_=;
Peace & Nitez